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Elliott and I have been discussing the unrealistic thought of what we do if we didn’t have to work. I think the answer is supposed to be an insight into how to find happiness in every day. But I don’t know anyone who could honestly say they would continue on exactly as they do right now if they didn’t need the money. So does that mean that we are all in the wrong line of work? Should our line of work reflect what we would do if we didn’t have to do it for the money? I would run more – should I be a personal trainer? I would like to help others not as fortunate – should I join the peace core? I would spend more time outside – should I be a park ranger? Instead I run when we are not working too much, tip well and donate old clothes and to charities, and I eat my lunch outside. That’s the best compromise I have been able to establish thus far. The truth is, I am challenged in my current job and I am able to get lost in it – keeping me entertained and usually not thinking about these types of ridiculous questions. I will say that Elliott started it – he asked the question initially. The funny thing is Elliott doesn’t have an answer. He has no idea what he would do if he didn’t have to work. We often joke he is passionless. Perhaps his true passion is his current work so he can’t imagine doing anything else. I don’t blame him I hear he has a great boss.
The other horrible part is this amazing opportunity that we took to come out here and open this office also feels like curse. It’s an amazingly awesome opportunity that is also restricting – there is a huge commitment to make it work. Days when I think being a coffee barista looks like a much better gig, I realize that I have a obligation to others by accepting this opportunity. That self inflicted pressure feels like a trap on the bad days. I suppose many people feel that pressure though. We all owe our success to someone, our parents slaving away at multiple jobs to send us to school, our mentors for hours of teaching, our bosses for entrusting us with more responsibility. For me balancing the guilt, the right thing to do with the right thing to do for me is tough. You would think work isn’t going well, that’s not true, everything is great right now. Maybe a little too busy. And on days when I wish I didn’t have to work so hard I start looking around and wondering. What would you do if you didn’t have to work…